Bezunesh

Jordan's birth mother's name was Bezunesh. I would love to tell you all that we know about her and Jordan's birth story (which, honestly, isn't a whole lot), but we want to honor her and Jordan by sharing that with Jordan first before we tell the whole world. :) Of course Jordan is too young to fully understand her story, but we do talk about sweet Bezunesh a lot. . . especially now that there is a baby in my belly.

I want Jordan to know that he was in Bezunesh's belly, just like baby Head is in my belly now. I want Jordan to know that Bezunesh carried him with care, just like I am carrying Baby Head with care. I never want Bezunesh and her careful love for Jordan to go unnoticed. We are so very grateful for Bezunesh . . . no words can describe how we wish we could have met her.

As I lay here and Baby Head is kicking and moving and swirling all around my tummy, I can almost (without sounding too weird) sense Bezunesh experiencing similar emotions as she carried Jordan. Of course, I wish with all of my heart that I could explain exactly how Bezunesh felt as she experienced Jordan grow and kick and swirl around in her belly, but I won't be able to do that for Jordan.

But I will be able to tell Jordan that she loved him . . .

How do I know that?

Because I'm pretty sure every mother (regardless of age, circumstance, and any other factor) with a sweet little life growing inside of her feels EXACTLY the same way . . .

Pure. Love.

Jordan, you are one special little man.

You have 2 mommies that love(d) you more than words can express.