Several times now since I've been pregnant, I have caught myself thinking, "Oh... this is kind of like the time during our adoption journey when...." I realize that the journey to Jordan and this current journey to Baby Head are COMPLETELY different and unique and deserve to be that way, but I also thinks it's so super interesting how many similarities I've noticed so far.
For example...
* The weeks/days leading up to our last appointment (the "BIG" one, where you get to find out what you're having, check out all the organs, etc) were full of so much anxiety for me...so many moments of having to give my thoughts over to God, as I would find myself worrying/wondering what the appointment would bring. In the same way, the days/weeks leading up to receiving our referral (when we "knew" our "big day" was just around the corner) were similarly filled with anxiety. What would his sweet face look like? Would he be 3 months old or 12 months old? Would he be in good health or be suffering from some sicknesses? And, in the same way, I had to give these questions/worries over to my God, the only ONE who could handle them all. :)
... so, last Wednesday when we saw sweet baby BOY Head at 20 weeks and got to hear the nurse say about all of his organs/ligaments, etc, "Normal... looks great... normal.... lookin' good..." I felt so much like I did on REFERRAL day when our computer screen opened, revealing the beautiful face of our sweet Jordan. Now, I don't believe that anything about either of our sweet babies is "Normal," as the lab technician pronounced; rather, I am convinced that a much better descriptive word for both Jordan and Baby Head would be, "hand-crafted," or "exactly His."
I am once again blown away by God's great grace toward the shaping and forming and growing of our family. BLOWN AWAY. And, we continue to put our hope in JESUS, not in this baby, or that baby, or this plan, or that plan. JESUS alone saves, satisfies, restores, and lasts forever, so that is where our hope will remain.
... just enjoying the daily blessings as they come . . .
and boy are they fun. :)
1 comments:
Great post! I had hoped you would draw some comparisons with your adoption process and your pregnancy! I think it is so interesting! You have such a unique blessing of getting to experience both! Thanks for sharing your journey!
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